November 27, 2001
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Did Some Thinking.
What will make me happy:
1. to have some financial security.
2. to be only responsible for my own and my daughters emotional well-being - at least until she's old enough to take it on herself.
3. to not feel guilty when i don't toe the accepted party line about being a wife.
4. to have my family around to give me unconditional hugs and
support.
5. to be able to work at something I love, without compromising my mothering.
6. to feel intellectually challenged in conversations once in a
while.
7. just to feel carefree occasionally.
8. to find unadulterated happiness in something other than my kid, because that's a big burden for such a little one to carry.
Comments (2)
i dont know who you are...you dont know who I am....it seems fate has brought us to this devine appointment....but one thing is for sure. You have really humbled me. I will be praying for you, even if you do hate christians. I am sorry things are so bad for you, but that wont change anything. So for now i hope someday you will find peace.
matthew
This really resonates with me. I too want to find my own path to happiness, instead of placing the burden of my happiness on my son's shoulders.
I can only tell you that I've been in through the Dark Night of the Soul, felt disconnected, out of love with both myself (and then of course, since I couldn't love myself) my husband.
Things do get better.
walk in beauty
Bast
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