November 27, 2001

  • Did Some Thinking.


    What will make me happy:
    1. to have some financial security.
    2. to be only responsible for my own and my daughters emotional well-being - at least until she's old enough to take it on herself.
    3. to not feel guilty when i don't toe the accepted party line about being a wife.
    4. to have my family around to give me unconditional hugs and
    support.
    5. to be able to work at something I love, without compromising my mothering.
    6. to feel intellectually challenged in conversations once in a
    while.
    7. just to feel carefree occasionally.
    8. to find unadulterated happiness in something other than my kid, because that's a big burden for such a little one to carry.

Comments (2)

  • i dont know who you are...you dont know who I am....it seems fate has brought us to this devine appointment....but one thing is for sure.  You have really humbled me.  I will be praying for you, even if you do hate christians.  I am sorry things are so bad for you, but that wont change anything. So for now i hope someday you will find peace. 

    matthew

  • This really resonates with me. I too want to find my own path to happiness, instead of placing the burden of my happiness on my son's shoulders.

    I can only tell you that I've been in through the Dark Night of the Soul, felt disconnected, out of love with both myself (and then of course, since I couldn't love myself) my husband.

    Things do get better.

    walk in beauty

    Bast

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