January 29, 2002
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Happy Anniversary.
Why is Mummy crying?
Each year we step on each other,
Racing to get further and further away from what we were.
Once we were laughing, warm and loving people.
Our wedding pictures prove it.
Once, I loved you.
You loved me.
We cared.
We really liked each other, didn’t we?
Now our words have become like bricks.
Building a wall between us.
Too hard. Too high. Too solid.
I stopped fighting a while ago, but you haven't noticed.
You are too angry.
You are too unhappy.
You are so lost and you stumble around - shoving me out of the way.
I curl inside myself
Waiting for the next misunderstanding,
The next fight,
The next bitter exchange.
Hunkered down, arms over my head.
My back to the wall in silence.
If it doesn't come out, it won't be a weapon.
This is not a marriage anymore.
And our child sits in the middle
Wondering what is going on.
She asks:
Why is Mummy crying?
Comments (9)
too sad...i'm sorry for your pain.
This is heartwrenching. I'm so sorry things are this way for you.
actually this is my anniversary gift to him. I am still hoping that something will inspire him to talk to me. So it's not as hopeless as it looks, honest.
I think you should leave him before the baby really knows the difference. Of course, that's my cold heartless opinion. I hate seeing guys make women miserable!
I love you...my offer of marriage has no expiration date. Smooch.
I agree with Margie. I left my ex when my son was 20 mos old. Now if I had left it at that we'd all have been better off...Adam didn't even remember us living together then or the fighting....dummy me, I let him come back a year and a half later, just long enough to get pregnant again and make another child unhappy. After that, my son remembered things and it was far worse. HUGSS!!!
can't think of anything to say that hasn't been said 'cept that was beautifully written.
That card should definetly be a wake up call for him!
I hope that it opens some doors of communication!
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